the universe is going to catch you

i'm going to try to stop complaining. (and be realistic.)
if someone else says something negative about haley, i will defend her without insulting their character. (i will find some way.)
i will stop making fun of amanda and everything she does. (& katie. this will be hard.)
i will be a better friend to maria. (and stop talking to sam.)
i will not critize my style anymore. (somehow find a way to make my clothes look good.)
if someone sends me a complaining message, i will not reply. (unless i attempt to cheer them up.)
i will not call myself ugly anymore. (or stare at my stomach in english.)
i will try in all of my classes. (i only have 12 days of school left, but let's start the summer with a good report card.)
i will not overeat when i get home. (bring something for lunch to school.)
i will not fall asleep in class. (try!)
i WILL get enough money to go to bamboozle next week. (DO IT.)
i will have confidence in my face. (i'm not horrible looking, i'm just weird.) ("you're so white."; "thanks sam.")
i will work in journalism, and finish. (whilst socializing, because justin is going to graduate. plus he'll be gone in two days.)
i will not listen to my ipod from 7:45 to 8:30, or put my headphones in right when the final bell rings. (soak up everything. especially the student parking lot and the teachers, since some of them are getting cut.)
i will not think about school next year this summer. (unless it's a positive thought.)
i will lose weight over the summer. (WILL.)
i will not slack off somewhat at salkehatchie like i did last year. (even though watching cj bark at the dog across the street was hilarious. multitask, taylor.)
i will not be so boy obsessed. {parker is too good for me, coty's graduating early, vincent (preciado! c:) doesn't know i exist, greg has a girlfriend. lord knows david's out of the picture. brandon hardly knows i exist either.}
i will NOT let anyone find this set. (from my school. oh jesus.)
i will hang out with danielle a lot this summer. (and possibly spend the night. amanda's would be fun too.)
i will write 'positive' on my wrist every day. (and pinch it when i complain about something, either mentally or out loud.)

i'm sending stuff in.
it's pretty doubtful they'll even read it, considering the fact that i'm only fifteen,
 
but maybe they'll give constructive criticism.

might skip tomorrow.
 
'mental health day'//'I HAVE FUCKING CRAMPS'
 
we'll see if my mom goes for it, i suppose.

if anyone is briefly considering buying a DD jacket, please do it.
 
THEY ARE SO F@#KING WARM.

my life in boykind today:
 
after school:
me-"god, yes, i want you to shut up, you're being fucking annoying." (talking to text message.)
daniel-"who do you want to leave you alone? david? i'll kill him! >:D"
i'm aware the overprotective brother card is so cliche, but it was kind of nice. even though LOLLOLLOLLOLOLOLOLOLOLIWISHLOLOL david would never like me.
 
greg: had the same blink shirt as me. i wore it first, but if a boy wears the same shirt as you you know you pretty much can't wear it again. D:
 
during lunch: guess what david did? he added abbi on facebook, got her number, texted her, told her he liked her, told her to meet him in the library this morning, told her about some weird dream he had with her in it. OKAY, FUCKING MANWHORE REPEATER. YOU CANT' JUST DO THAT WITH AMANDA AND DO IT WITH ABBI. jerk. xD
 
also during lunch/fifth period: (texting)
 
him-can i ask you something?
me-um, sure. what?
him-virgin?
me-why are you even asking?
him-just wondering. are you?
me-that's none of your business, actually.
him-yes no? tell me.
me-why?
 
sixth period: (also texting) (different boy)
 
me-he's a manwhore.
him-yeah i know. i love him but he does have that problem.
me-he's like, the worst kind of manwhore too.
him-yeah. did he get you?
me-roflroflroflrolforlf, no. two of my friends.
him-aw.
me-somehow he's nice about it.
him-yeah. he's got issues.
me-i hate boys at the moment.
him-even me?
me-i don't know. the entire boykind is kind of fucked up, if you ask me.
him-i didn't do anything.
me-i never said you did.
him-i'm not looking for a #$%^ & @#$%. i like you.
 
(i'm not writing what he said, although the two words rhyme, and you could probably figure it out. something a manwhore does, i guess. to girls.)
 
when i was in seventh grade i begged and begged the sweet willing gods of whoever is up there in the clouds to make someone like me, and now i've figured out that it's not so great. so don't do what i did, D:
 
oh, and, before first period:
saw preciado. c:

OHFUCK,MAN. in my glorious thinking of moving to charleston and living by the beach and american apparel and the college of charleston and going to a huge school i didn't think about LUNCH ON THE FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL.
 
sitting alone? wtf, man. that would suck. that's so intimidating. xD
 
"amanda. shut the hell up. can't you go five seconds without insulting someone?" oh how i wish i could say that to her in gym. i will. i could care less if mrs. terzo hears and makes me go to ferris's office or something. my mom can take my phone and ipod and i REALLY WON'T CARE because my heart will be soaring with joy that i finally spoke up and said something. one more little snide remark, amanda, and maria's about to tackle you before i can even say anything. xD

oh my god, this kid makes me smile incredibly too much. :{D
i need to stop.
wait, if we DO ever move to charleston in my high school life, there would be no more reggay, avidday, arkerpay, atrickpay, OR randonbay. D:
in other news, north charleston high school has...three stories. i love huge high schools. okay, maybe that's not huge huge, but i guess it is compared to here. i just like the fact of a bagillion (to me, again) different people. c: not where everyone knows everyone, i guess.
go listen to this in t-minus NOW, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=6OsTUnkqSi4&playnext_from=TL&videos=YMSvSVddYYA
wait no, i have more to say. LUKE LAMBERT. he's in two pictures in our yearbook, from prom last year. TWO PICTURES. HOMECOMING KING. you can't even see his face. D: if christen and brittney thought he was cute, he must be. like, legit, universal cute, because they're total opposites.
oh, and tonight was internet-fun. talked to danielle about boys and her cdrew/crying/me dream and to katelyn and danica about kyler and stuff. c:

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